It has been far too long since my last entry on here and I am back at it now. I initially was derailed with tech issues on the page that prevented my doing any entries but that was fixed several months ago. Having said that, back in the Summer, my wife was diagnosed with Breast Cancer and that consumed a lot of my time, energy and emotional strength. I have never had to experience all the stress that a major illness brings into one’s life until this event. Her diagnosis has been a life changing moment on so many levels. My being the “fixer” personality type, not being able to do anything to fix her health was very tough on me. The person with the disease has a mountain to climb but their partner becomes the Sherpa! We carry a lot of stresses and worries, while feeling helpless to do anything at the same time. Trust me, there have been many moments in 2016 and into the beginning of 2017 that I wondered how I would be able to carry any further burdens…I did…I survived…stronger for it!
I am happy to say that her surgery was a success and so were the Chemotherapy treatments. She finished her last chemo a couple of weeks ago and is preparing for some minor surgery and then in about 3 weeks she will undergo Radiation Therapy. She still has a long way to go, she requires I.V. treatments (Herceptin) every 3 weeks until October but we are praying the worst is almost behind us now. My heart goes out to anyone who either gets a diagnosis of a major health issue, or has someone close to them get diagnosed. It is a very challenging thing to process. You go to bed the night before and life was the status quo, the next day you get hit with news that you will remember for the rest of your life. You will remember exactly what you were doing at that moment you got the news, it “burns” itself into your brain. The important thing to do is to work hard at processing the negative energy out of your body, consciousness and Spirit that receiving that news gives. For those that are “Type A” personalities like me, you need to learn how to surrender control and develop a new set of skills…”coping” versus fixing.
I felt it was important to get myself back on track with my writing and moving my work forward now that I have more energy back to do so. I am wishing you all a healthy and happy 2017 and look forward to more blog entries in the near future! (working on another at this moment) 😉